And so, I really died with regards to one of the three subjects which was returned.
English, Physics, Geography... which of them seemed like the subject which would totally pwn my ass off? If you know me well enough, or even if you don't know me that well, you can probably see one of the three subjects sticking out like a sore thumb, and indeed it is lucky contestant number 2, Physics.
Score? 37/80, which pulled my initial Physics GPA of 3.6 (I was actually rather shocked at this) to 2.8, and bringing me down quite a bit. But its not the pulling down of the overall that makes me sad. With regards to my classmates 99% of the time they become sad because of the overall being pulled down (i.e. Jon Gan, who got sad because he HYPOTHESIZED that there would be moderation and because he minus one mark he won't get to the next grade -.-), but for me it's a sort of different case. My overall GPA can go to hell for all I care, but a red mark in my APR doesn't look good, and obviously I don't like it.
I have never gotten such a red mark before on any of my APRs over the four years, and I do not like it to have started at Secondary 4. It marks an ominous beginning to JC life, and of course it's not exactly pleasing to my parents. Which is why I feel sad. However, mistakes have already been committed and there is nothing that I can do to change these mistakes, so in the Spirit of Ivan™, I shall look forward to the future... with no Physics. LOL.
Yea, I'm probably going to drop Physics. I seriously suck at it -.-
Oh, and if they moderate the Physics marks, they better moderate the EOY marks and not the overall. This way I can actually avoid a red mark and make things look all fine and dandy :)
On to the next issue, it's something totally random but it struck me as a rather pertinent issue, which is rather disgusting. JQ and I were taking the bus home one day and then this old man comes along to sit next to this moderately attractive RJC girl and he was shifting his eyes like as if he had Parkinson's disease in the eyes. So JQ and I laughed like shit as we were observing from behind how this old man was desperately trying to get a good look of the girl. Pity the girl though, it's quite a sad case to be ogled at by old men on the bus and not by real men of her age.
Anyway, I shrugged it off as a one-time case. But as time went on, I realised that such things were actually happening pretty often. Such as today. This old man had this super perverted face as he chose to sit next to this attractive lady in front of me (why does everything happen in front of me -.-) instead of some blatantly vacant seats. Yea, and you can guess what was going on. To make things worse, ANOTHER old man sitting in front of the lady turned around to stare. And not stare like as if he was preparing to turn his head around the moment the lady looked up, but stared like a BISHAN GAY. For at least I swear to God 5-10 seconds he was just looking at her and examining all her body features. Even though I am a male myself and I understand such tendencies to want to look at attractive people, sometimes we do have to place ourselves in their shoes and think about how they feel at the incessant ogling taking place. Even from my position I kind of sympathize with them, and seriously it does seem quite disgusting to me to ogle. I mean a glance or a look is fine, but STARING. Holy shit that's gone abit overboard already.
ivan fed the world.
And so, I return here to post a blogpost, showing that I am indeed safe and sound. Why? Because I obtained rather satisfactory marks, or rather because it's quite easy to give me marks I am satisfied with anyway.
I did not go to the 7th floor because I was not sad enough or happy enough to do so, and because the world loves me to much for me to leave it yet. :/
Anyway enough of the bullshit, here's an update on my scores for the subjects I got back so far:
Maths:
Exam - 51/80 Overall - 63
Social Studies:
Exam - 26/30 Overall - 78
Chemistry:
Exam - 53/80 Overall - 70
Biology:
Exam - 58/100 Overall - 58
chinese*:
Overall - 63
So essentially I maintained everything, and pulled my SS up one grade o.o
People are unsatisfied at missing 4.0s (Bobo's incessant "AIYA I MISS 4.0 FOR MATHS"), while I am happy with just what I get. It is sometimes important to appreciate what you have done, and not always think about the "what should have been".
No, it's not about the Dark League I am talking about here, it's simply about practicing a virtue of Contentment. Sometimes, we feel that we could have gotten this and could have gotten that, but it is important to realize that we did get all the marks which we did, and should again be happy for what we have done correctly. Do not keep blaming yourself for what you did not do, but rejoice for what you have done. That, is the essence of contentment:
"In no wise covet those things in which God hath bestowed His gifts more freely on some of you than on others: to men is allotted what they earn, and to women what they earn: but ask God of His bounty." (4:32)
- Copied from Wikipedia LOL
Anyway here is what Shawn said to me on an MSN convo:
tat chern says:
tmrw must win ah
tat chern says:
haha
FEED THE WORLD™ feeedtheworld.blogspot.com says:
err no
FEED THE WORLD™ feeedtheworld.blogspot.com says:
we are going to get thrashed
FEED THE WORLD™ feeedtheworld.blogspot.com says:
u coming to support?
tat chern says:
nah got third lang
...
WTF got third lang then tell us must win ah -.- Not to mention we ARE in a rather tough group, so the hope isn't really there. But of course we will try to do what we can in spite of having about 0 supporters woooo! Wish us luck tomorrow :D
P.S. Whether I can go for the interclass still depends on my marks tomorrow: English, Physics and Geography. If any of them fail me, I might feel very sad and demoralized :(
* I still do not respect this subject.
ivan fed the world.
“如果我今天拿不到九十分, 我的死期就到了。”
My version：如果我明天那不到五十分，我的死期就到了。
我的死期到了 :(
Anyway, tomorrow its results day - or at least most of it. Things do not look good, but ah it's all easy to end from a 7th floor. O_o
Rumours depict 50% of the level failing Physics, and I am desperately hoping it remains a rumour. However, even if the rumour IS false, I think I will still fail Physics anyway :/ Let's see then.
Tuesday is interclass soccer, and whether I can go or not hinges on whether I go playing around the 7th floor tomorrow after school :/
Will I be able to go for interclass soccer which we know we cannot progress through anyway? Stay tuned.
By the way, Shawn's YFC Youth Flying dunno what shit sounds quite cool but also sounds quite stressful -.- Anyone interested other than Shawn? If anyone is interested I MAY consider. MAY.
ivan fed the world.
You see, I did not bother to blog the moment I left school because I went on a frenzy of crazy, sinful, yet delightful pleasures which were mentioned in the post before this.
However, we actually felt a sense of... boredom. Yes, boredom. Being constantly put into the same environment of Cuppage over and over again playing LAN at its ridiculously cheap prices and pool over and over again with the same few people. We did not really know what we wanted to do.
We discussed a sports day. But obviously not everyone would want to play all the sports. Like for example leech would not play soccer, or Yan De won't play tennis. The problems just keep mounting in the search for entertainment.
Oh wait, did I mention my exams were over?
[craziness]
HOLY SHIT IT'S OVER LOLOLOLOL WOOOTOSODSOOODWODSOD!
[/craziness]
And reflecting on my exams, I think it has all actually been a test. A test to see my abilities. A test to see how well I can really do... in last minute mugging. You see, almost all the subjects were studied for in a single day of mad last-minute cramming:
English - What the hell do you study for this?
Social Studies - A few hours in an online discussion with Shawn, reading some notes... that's it.
Maths - I tried for a week. I seriously tried. But it goes to hell all the same.
Chemistry - Studied the textbook. Fullstop.
Physics - Studied for a day on the textbook and nothing else. Goes to hell too.
Geography - LOL SPENT HALF AN HOUR IN TOTAL ON THIS.
Biology - Was in holiday mood when it came to the time to study for this. Studied textbook.
And so you see, my results are going to be returned next Wednesday. I can assure you it's not going to be pretty, but it's a fair test on my brain's capacity for last-minute cramming of information and also my skills of sleep deprivation. I told this to Zhihe the other day, and he was saying: "Why would you want to test this out on your End-of-Years?"
Now that I think about it, good point.
ivan fed the world.
Nobody blogs during exam period. Noobs. =)
Anyway, Maths and Chemistry just finished today and I am proud to say that I did the Dark League proud. I give myself a pat on my own back for that.
AngJJ ponned today's tests, which was the "killer day". The class is pissed, everyone thinks he's a cheater (CHITTER! LOL), and he is so dead. XD
Tomorrow is Physics and Geography, two subjects I have not touched until today itself. I am breaking the world record for speed mugging, and I am proud to announce that I am doing the Dark League proud once again.
2 more days to the end. When we will revel in endless pool, CS, DotA, tennis, soccer, frisbee etc etc.
And not to forget what Gene said, "Orgasmic delight." LOL.
P.S. To those who are not taking Biology, you can all just go die now. I shall use my dissecting powar I learnt from Bio class to pwnzors your innards. Yes I mean you Shawn :)
P.P.S. JQ here is your blogpost. Now stfu and leave me alone. Noob.
ivan fed the world.